“God is my savior. I will trust Him and not be afraid. The Lord gives me power and strength. He is my savior.” – Isaiah 12:2
I still can’t find the words to share to you what happened in my life for the past months. The blogging hiatus wasn’t really part of the plan. (Honestly, there was really no plan at all. HAHA)
The month of May was all about adjustments – new work; new people; new dialect; new environment; new routine. I got accepted as an architectural intern at ArchiGlobal Inc. and realized that indeed, I missed planning, doing concepts, sketches and other stuff. Also, I finally turned 23 this month. Even though there was no celebration, or fancy dinner or anything, my gift for myself was enough – Big Mac meal for dinner at McDonalds’. Hahaha.
This was also the month wherein I felt like God was so silent. I’ve been praying so hard yet it feels like God doesn’t hear me. Sometimes, it’s just so hard to act and pretend that you’re okay when deep inside you know you just want to break down. What’s worse is that every time I will cry and feel that I’m really having a hard time adjusting to the new place, I can’t help but to think of the real reason why I decided to go here. It was a tough month… but by God’s grace, I survived.
“But I will wait for better times; wait ‘til this time of trouble is ended.” – Job 14:14
I feel like I wasn’t really able to enjoy this month. I spent most of my time at work, doing not only overtime, but also overnights. But God is so good; He sustained me despite my busyness at work and the preparations for the GBC’s (Grace Baptist Church) 20th anniversary wherein I get to play the violin again in front of an audience after 5 long years.
June was a month full of surprises. God finally answered my prayer. I can’t believe it took me this long to realize that what I was trying to hold on for the past months was actually useless. But just in time, something unexpected happened. God gave me new reasons to smile every day. Slowly, I began to feel at peace, happy, and contented. Truly, God’s timing is the best.
“You have changed my sadness into a joyful dance. You have taken away my sorrow and surrounded me with joy. So I will not be silent; I will sing praise to you. Lord, you are my God; I will give you thanks forever.” – Psalms 30:11-12
Last month was probably the best one so far. Seeing and doing things in God’s perspective has helped me a lot to divert all the negative thoughts. I’m now part of the praise team of GBC, volunteered in the kid’s Sunday school, got involved with the Ablaze (youth group), had new friends, and even had the privilege to teach how to play the violin to some kids in church. Sometimes, I still can’t believe that I’m actually doing these things. I’m amazed by how God changed me – from the inside out.
“..and one thing that God does is to make us stand in awe of Him.”
– Ecclesiastes 3:14
Aside from doing a recap of the happenings for the past months, let me also share to you these:
People indeed come and go. You can influence them, but you cannot change them. Only God can do that. So pray and leave the results to Him.
LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS:
Put God first… so you can have God’s best. Both of you should have the same level of commitment before God. And when you pray for someone, it should also be in your prayer that one day, when you finally meet that person, both of you would really have that desire to serve the Lord together.
Life is too precious to be wasted away. Choose to serve God and live for God because He will do great things in your life. Life is short. So live it for God. Because when you do, there will never be a moment you’ll regret.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY! ♥